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Theory class ends anywhere between 6:45 and 7:30 depending on the weekly algorithm; but last night I needed to leave early, so of course we went overtime.

I speed-limped across to the library to meet S., who has not seen me in yonks (five or six yonks at least) but still beatifically offered to drive me to the reading (as recorded in the comments to this very LiveJournal.)

The reading being the This Side of West book launch at Open Space last night, which I more or less failed to properly inform anyone about because I felt embarrassed asking them to come see me read such a short story.*

I'd emailed that I'd be late and that the organizers should put me in the latter part of the program, but never really heard anything further.

We arrived midway through someone else's reading. We waited politely on the stairs, partly out of consideration and partly because we'd have to cross in view of the entire audience to get to our seats.

An organizer-type came over to us and negotiated in whispers. There was applause. As we negotiated payment, I heard my own name and realized that I was in fact being introduced.

I strode across the floor, shrugged off my coat, stepped to the podium and launched into my reading. I read the story straight through, nodded, smiled, and left.

Afterwards I realized that other people had, you know, said something before they read, given a title, anything; but since there was also apparently a fairly stringent time restraint, I think it worked out well. I didn't have time to get self-conscious, though I also didn't have time to check the microphone. I popped a few P's (rethinking that whole "Prank" thematic), but I am told I could be heard reasonably well, and there were at least a few laughs.

My long-ago poetry prof was in the front row. She was quite sweet to me afterwards.

[livejournal.com profile] argus_in_tights and [livejournal.com profile] geniusoutlaws were in residence, and even bought me a drink after I read. Joy.

There is something about drinking pinot blanc out of a clear plastic cup with a scratchy rim, listening to a nervous young poet at a music stand reading their Words -- o yes, there was Poet Voice, and self-referentiality, and in-jokes I was not inside -- but I felt so affectionate towards the whole enterprise of trying to make things out of language and show them to people.

I don't know if student writing is just getting better in general, or if I am more well-disposed to humanity than in my youth, but I enjoyed the whole process. ([livejournal.com profile] geniusoutlaws did say they only put things in they actually liked, which seems to have been a fruitful strategy.)

We left early -- S. to Sooke and me to a quite night walk and think.

S. is working on a fascinating book project entailing research in the new special collections room at UVic. I got to hear about that. In return I'm afraid she had to listen to me Hold Forth a bit -- that has not, I'm afraid, gotten any better since she last saw me.

It was a good sort of day. Reading theory in the morning, then driving out to Langford for the brilliant hair stylings of B.'s sister. That's two people in one day who were willing to drive me places in the most useful possible way, and to entertain me with good conversation while they did it. Then writing out my assignment (bit verbose), then class and discussion of Affect Theory, which I enjoyed very much even if we did go over. Then S. and book projects and readings. Then home to discover that [livejournal.com profile] inlandsea had conceived the selfless project of cleaning out under the sink. Me, I watched "Arrested Development" until much too late.

And now at last it is 10:30 and I can register for my summer courses. I hope your day goes as well.

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*Though actually it was longer than I remembered.

**ETA: Here is the book project.
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So I might be going to read at Pride in the Word. It's next Saturday night, 7pm, Open Space Gallery. I expect it costs money.

The reason it is definite and I am tentative is best explained through psychological narrative.

I'd found the roster for Pride in the Word, and thought, "I never get invited to read at these things." I felt sorry for myself for a bit, and then I allowed the eventual corollary, "Because no one has the faintest idea who I am."

So I asked the Captain of all our hearts, "Captain, what should I do to become the sort of person who gets asked to be in poetry readings?"

Whereupon he offered me part of his stage time. I was so alarmed that I tried to refuse. He wasn't having any, and [livejournal.com profile] inlandsea said that being afraid that no one would like me was not a good reason not to do it.

Stupid believing in yourself. Too much work.

Annnyway. Any number of forces might prevent it from happening. Logistics. A rain of herring. If they somehow don't, I'll be there. And if you go, well, you'll be there, too. There are lots of other people reading that you might like better.

Saturday. 7 o'clock. Open Space.

There. I've done what I can.

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